Had a bad morning but I feel fine now, felt sick around 4 something this morning got up finally at around 4:57 and, took my sugar it was 59, than got up and ate a sandwich and a oats bar. Felt better went back to sleep. Woke up again because the person up stairs was making too much noise for me to really sleep, so got up and watched some TV.  I sleep on the sofa now don't feel like I should sleep with Bubba anymore, no reason to, so I don't. He don't say anything about such things so I suppose it's alright with him too.  He's to move next month if or if not we both get our checks, because if we don't we will both be put out anyway.  I to my sister hopefully and I don't know who will let him stay with them in his family, he thought so much of them, I haven't seen no one but his four sons, one already told me he didn't want him to stay with him, so I don't know where he'll go. My people may and may not let him live with them. Everyone who gets a SSI, SSA or government check should start praying.
I only get 600, and something, maybe they will leave my little money alone. I just called the cable people to cut back my channels today, because I know I won't be able to paid it soon, and next month when he leaves I am  going to cut the whole thing off, just keeping it on now because he loves TV so much, like it's his only friend.

I don't know why know one is following me, I think I'm not interesting enough.  Well It's my true life, I just tell

it like it is.  Bubba got were he don't want to cook for himself, because he knows I will do it, just get angry because I know he can do it.  Well now I just go  ahead and fix him breakfast, lunch and dinner, so I won't have to worry that he didn't eat something.  I just gave him some lunch, and say to him as I sat the plate down, "here lazy man," and now he's in the kitchen fixing him something himself.  I been praying that my check, and his check, also every one that gets a SSI, SSA, gets their check next month, or I don't know what I will do or Bubba. Lets hope we all be alright, need the lords help big time these days.

I woke up this morning sick, trembling,  sweating, stomach felt sick and weak. I got up knowing this was signs of
low blood sugar, and that I needed to one check and see just how low it was, and two eat breakfast next.  Well
it was 52 and falling, so I hurried up and cooked myself breakfast. Which was just a cup of coffee, a small salad,
 some applesauce, and a bologna sandwich.  Felt much better after all this.  Since I was already up, I stayed up
and watched some TV.  I love to watch the news in the morning, kind of make me feel not alone in whatever I'm
going through because no matter what I'm going through there is always someone doing just as bad as I or better.  I like both stories, makes me feel like either way can come to me.  On another subject, Mr. B when he

can't remember something now, he just makes up something, and will blame someone else for what he forgot he did.  I wonder if that is something all stroke victims do.  I don't like it at all. Good news is he doing much better these days, about taking care of himself.  He not only dresses, clean, cooks, takes his med's, he also went for a walk without me or anyone telling him to, I think he will be just fine by-himself, but with a little help.

A nurse is going to continue visiting Bubba, for a bit, even when he moves to his place, and this makes me happy to know he will be getting that help, plus me, his sons and daughter will check up on him time to time. Mostly me.
I want to make sure he is doing fine now and in the future.  Although we are no longer together, I will always be his friend, and I respect him enough to want him to do great, I even hope that love will come into his life one day.
This is my dream for him to be happy, healthy and independent.

My internet just got back on tonight around 11:10 pm. I sure missed it very much, you don't know how much you like something until it's gone.  I wonder if that's what my x-man will feel by next month when he moves out.  Went to spend sometime with my daughter today, gave her a birthday card for her birthday, which was this month. Had fun just wasn't enough time in a day.

Moving On

I'm ready to moving on with my life, by-myself.  Next month is when Bubba moves into his own place, and I will be here by-my-self, I'm going to love it, I know, I wish he was all ready in his house.  A friend of mines invited me and my daughter to her birthday party, and I not sure I should go yet, I guess I'm afraid I would have to much fun, before I think it's respectable to have fun before Bubba leave.  I'm thinking about it, not that I think I would try to talk seriously to someone I know I wouldn't. But I just don't think it's right not yet.  He seemed to take it very well that we are no longer together, just living together until he moves.  I did see him looking at me funny the other day don't know what it meant I didn't ask either.

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