New Beginnings

I have started two more blogs one called "Senti9" or called "Vict7" please checked these out.

Letting Go

Bubba now lives back with his wife, I am happy for him, she stayed in his life long enough for me to want him to go back to her, and I think he never stopped loving her, so what if I wasted half my life thinking I was his number one, I must have been number 10 or more. Well I am here and I'm free to be me again, and I'm loving it.

Keep ready again

Ready to be alone, with me, but it can't happen, until he moves, I think he really believes I don't really want him to go, but I do, and I'm not sorry about it.  I will be there for him, making sure he's alright but not every single day.  I need space, and I will get it. It's $60 I need to get him into his house, I went over there today, I wanted to move him in today, the house was cool inside, I thought it would be hot, but it wasn't, and with the windows opened it was even cooler, than my apartment, I have to keep the air off here because he be to cold, we just run the ceiling fans.  First picture is of my doll house kitchen, the next is Mr.A went he was doing better, before strokes or heart attacks.

Giving up one dream for another

I tried not very hard to sell something I made, but no one was buying so I gave it away, hoping that it would be appreciated. I decided to not make it anymore, or least for a long time. I need to make some money, and I make things all the time just can't seems to sell anything these days, Maybe everybody is just trying to just buy basic things, don't have money for crafts. I understand. I'm feeling better these days, not worrying about what I can't do. Me and my friend are still friends, and get along alright for now, while we wait on him to get into his place, and it may take four to five months, unless someone helps us with the bill.  I am not going to ask anyone else for money, it's making me feel bad, every time I do this. So we will work it out or continue to stay together. I believe we can both handle this, one way or the other.

family Not

Mr. A family members came over yesterday, everyone had somethings to say, about how I was handling things, but no one had been here to help and no one gave any money to help. So I say what's up with that.  I can now speak in my home and no one can say get out, feels good.  Well I'm loving myself,  Loving my God, Jesus and believing in that if you work hard it will be so.  The landowner of his house is trying to work with me but I think he might give the house to someone who can pay all their bills. Than we are back to the drawing board.

Well take a look at my art.

Working It Out!

Walked from my house to down town to the Library and the store, and back, what a work out I did.  I am proud of myself  I was sweating a lot and glad because it takes a lot for me to sweat. I had to get out of the house it's like been in the house with a person who is not even there, I mean he hardly ever  talk to me, he just sit on the sofas and watches TV like it's the most important thing in his life.  I told him that I have to cut the cable off soon I hate that he's in love with it but I have to pay my bills, like rent and light bill.  I had already plan to cut it, I just though that  he would have already moved by now, but since he have to pay down his bill  before he moves, He will be here until than or until I  find away for to pay his bill,  Believe me I wish I could pay for his old bill so he can go on and move, I'm ready to be By My Self.

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